5 years ago I was hanging on, living each day one dreaded day at a time. Everything felt too much, I was overwhelmed by responsibility, feeling completely empty of any positive emotion and anxious each second of the day. I was surviving, just. During 2011 I was a newlywed, pregnant with our first child, we… Continue reading Thriving or Surviving?
Recovery means different things to different people. For some it means no longer needing medication, for others, including myself it means being able to do the things your illness prevented you doing before and some people don't believe in the word recovery. These are all valid points, but something I believe is recovery is different… Continue reading Recovery – its individual
It's such a difficult subject to talk about yet it affects so many people - Baby loss. * Trigger Warning this post contains my experiences of miscarriage and may be triggering for some, please read with caution and only if you feel able to * Its Baby Loss Awareness week, an event held each October… Continue reading The Taboo of Baby Loss
My first taste of motherhood wasn't what I hoped. My daughter is nearly 5 and it's taken me the best part of 4 of those years to make peace with the desperate sense of loss I felt at not enjoying the first precious years with my baby. In previous posts I've explained how postnatal depression… Continue reading Moving on after Postnatal Depression..
Although I am recovered, I think I will always have some degree of anxiety left behind. It's normal for everyone to have anxiety, it's dates back to our caveman days when we sensed danger, our body pumped extra adrenaline giving us our fight or flight response. Obviously we don't really need this anymore, but when… Continue reading Anxiety After Recovery ..
Recently my husband wrote a guest blog with a couple of tips for partners supporting a new mum through postnatal depression. Following on from that I sat down and chatted with my mum about what it was like from her perspective. I didn't realise I was unwell for the first 6 months, then I hid… Continue reading When Your Daughter Has Postnatal Depression…
Looking back over my past blog posts I was surprised to see I hadn't written about this, especially as it was probably the most life altering part of my illness. Agoraphobia is described by the NHS website as 'a fear of being in situations where escape might be difficult or that help wouldn't be available if… Continue reading Agoraphobia: My experience & Recovery