My first taste of motherhood wasn't what I hoped. My daughter is nearly 5 and it's taken me the best part of 4 of those years to make peace with the desperate sense of loss I felt at not enjoying the first precious years with my baby. In previous posts I've explained how postnatal depression… Continue reading Moving on after Postnatal Depression..
Although I am recovered, I think I will always have some degree of anxiety left behind. It's normal for everyone to have anxiety, it's dates back to our caveman days when we sensed danger, our body pumped extra adrenaline giving us our fight or flight response. Obviously we don't really need this anymore, but when… Continue reading Anxiety After Recovery ..
Looking back over my past blog posts I was surprised to see I hadn't written about this, especially as it was probably the most life altering part of my illness. Agoraphobia is described by the NHS website as 'a fear of being in situations where escape might be difficult or that help wouldn't be available if… Continue reading Agoraphobia: My experience & Recovery
It's Fathers Day here in the UK, I spoke in my previous blog post about Dads who are struggling with postnatal depression; but what about the Dads supporting Mums with PND? Supporting someone through mental illness is difficult and its important that you also have someone to speak to for support. Today's post has been written… Continue reading Supporting Someone Through PND – By A Dad Who’s Been There
When we think of Postnatal Depression, we tend to picture mums at home with their baby struggling with their new life. However did you know Dads can experience postnatal depression too? Postnatal Depression is typically described as depression experienced by parents during the first year after the birth of a child. However, recent research from… Continue reading Dads & Depression
I share a lot of my own journey on this blog but I also wanted to give some helpful information when it comes to postnatal depression. So I thought the best place to start was with the signs and symptoms to look out for. 1 in 7 mums will experience some form of maternal mental… Continue reading Postnatal Depression – Signs & Symptoms
Ok this is a difficult post to write without causing the usual debate which 99% of the time turns into breast vs bottle war. I don't want or intend this to become a one side is better than the other argument. Also before I continue - I've done both breast and bottle, this blog post… Continue reading When Breast Isn’t Best For Mother
I recently did an interview about my experiences with postnatal depression, and I've spent a lot of time reflecting and reliving my journey. I was surprised it had stirred up some emotions, but it's also helped me heal and make peace with myself. I have been reading and watching things online which I have found… Continue reading Making Peace & Letting Go
When I was pregnant with my first baby I was so optimistic about the future. I was newly married, we had just moved to a new home and I was finally fulfilling my dream of becoming a parent - I couldn't wait for the next stage of my life. Soon after she was born though… Continue reading Mourning My Old Self & Learning To Love The New
**Before reading please be aware this blog post contains my experience with suicidal feelings and may be a trigger for some** Since I was 15 I have had a fear about death. I'd never personally known anyone close to me to pass away until I was 15, when my aunt passed away, after an extremely… Continue reading Hitting Rock Bottom