When I was pregnant with my first baby I was so optimistic about the future. I was newly married, we had just moved to a new home and I was finally fulfilling my dream of becoming a parent - I couldn't wait for the next stage of my life. Soon after she was born though… Continue reading Mourning My Old Self & Learning To Love The New
I have a new feature that I launched on my Facebook page this week. 'Inspiring Mums Monday' The aim is for mums to share their stories, quotes or messages to help other mums during their recovery. I want to show others that they aren't alone while going through a perinatal mental illness, that their voices… Continue reading Inspiring Mums Monday
**Before reading please be aware this blog post contains my experience with suicidal feelings and may be a trigger for some** Since I was 15 I have had a fear about death. I'd never personally known anyone close to me to pass away until I was 15, when my aunt passed away, after an extremely… Continue reading Hitting Rock Bottom
Sounds strange but I think it might have. I was perfectly happy before postnatal depression struck. In fact the year leading up to my daughters birth was the happiest of my life. I had my dream wedding, a job I loved, we had moved into a new home and had the joy of being pregnant… Continue reading Postnatal Depression – Has It Improved Me?
I suffered severe anxiety alongside my PND - the two fed off of each other and I was trapped in an endless loop of negative feelings. When I first started having panic attacks I had no idea what was happening to me. My heart was racing, it felt as though it were going to explode… Continue reading Anxiety, Panic Attacks & Obsessive thoughts – oh my!
The aim of my blog, and social media outlets was to take a more positive approach to postnatal depression. You may think it's a strange thing to do, a positive outlook on the most negative impact of my life. But I couldn't help noticing that so much of what I read online about depression and… Continue reading Shining Light Into The Depression Fog
Getting to where I am today has not been easy. I set out with intentions for this to be a positive blog, I wanted to offer that hope for recovery which I was searching for when I was suffering the most. I have to visit those dark days to highlight how far I have come.… Continue reading Recovery – It Is Possible
This past week I set up a local online support group for my area. 'Lotus Petal PND' An online Facebook page and Twitter account to offer peer support, it was something I was searching for when I was first diagnosed. I longed to talk to other parents near me who 'got it' but I couldn't… Continue reading So Now The World Knows
When I first found out I had PND I'll be honest, I was embarrassed. How could I feel depressed when I had a lovely life and everything I wished for? My initial reaction was to not tell anyone. They would think I was ungrateful. So I hid it, and I hid it well. My husband… Continue reading A Problem Shared …
Lots of information and awareness has been raised recently regarding mental illness, and how it is portrayed in the media. It has got me thinking about my own experiences with this. After the birth of my 3rd baby I went to see my GP as I could feel myself slipping back into depression. My thoughts… Continue reading You don’t look depressed…