5 years ago I was hanging on, living each day one dreaded day at a time. Everything felt too much, I was overwhelmed by responsibility, feeling completely empty of any positive emotion and anxious each second of the day. I was surviving, just. During 2011 I was a newlywed, pregnant with our first child, we… Continue reading Thriving or Surviving?
Sometimes in life we are surprised by an unexpected gift, and sometimes it can be cruelly snatched away. Occasionally though, these moments can also bring us clarity... *Trigger Warning - contains talk of miscarriage, please only read if you feel able* I've never been a great writer. I love reading but I don't have the… Continue reading Losing The Unexpected
Recovery means different things to different people. For some it means no longer needing medication, for others, including myself it means being able to do the things your illness prevented you doing before and some people don't believe in the word recovery. These are all valid points, but something I believe is recovery is different… Continue reading Recovery – its individual
Just over two years ago I discovered a group of like minded people online who changed my life in wonderful ways. While I was struggling with anxiety after a recent miscarriage, and then feeling pretty low throughout my third pregnancy, I turned to the internet to try and find some local support groups. I'd already… Continue reading Finding Your Tribe
Experiencing a perinatal mental illness affects everyone in different ways, for some it's like a flick of a switch and for others it's a gradual decline of their mental health. There are times in our lives where we have the version of ourselves before an event and a version after. For me there have been… Continue reading Flick of a switch
This week we have seen another celebrity open up about their battle with mental illness. Adele revealed to Vanity Fair her experience of postnatal depression and how taking time for herself helped. I always feel a sense of pride and I'm grateful when someone tells their story. I'm proud because I know how hard it… Continue reading Why Celebrity Mental Health Stories Matter
A question I'm asked often is "were all your children planned?" - the short answer is yes they were....I have 3 children very close in age, when my third baby was born I had 3 under 3yrs. During that time I struggled with severe postnatal depression and anxiety that was so bad I didn't leave… Continue reading Having another baby after Postnatal depression
It's such a difficult subject to talk about yet it affects so many people - Baby loss. * Trigger Warning this post contains my experiences of miscarriage and may be triggering for some, please read with caution and only if you feel able to * Its Baby Loss Awareness week, an event held each October… Continue reading The Taboo of Baby Loss
My first taste of motherhood wasn't what I hoped. My daughter is nearly 5 and it's taken me the best part of 4 of those years to make peace with the desperate sense of loss I felt at not enjoying the first precious years with my baby. In previous posts I've explained how postnatal depression… Continue reading Moving on after Postnatal Depression..
Although I am recovered, I think I will always have some degree of anxiety left behind. It's normal for everyone to have anxiety, it's dates back to our caveman days when we sensed danger, our body pumped extra adrenaline giving us our fight or flight response. Obviously we don't really need this anymore, but when… Continue reading Anxiety After Recovery ..