I've been well now for nearly 3 years. Recovery is individual to everyone but one thing we all know is it isn't an easy, straight road. Here I share what I've learnt from my own difficult moments and relapses. I've had two main 'relapses' when it came to my postnatal mental health. The first was… Continue reading What I’ve learnt from my Mental Health relapses…
Recovery means different things to different people. For some it means no longer needing medication, for others, including myself it means being able to do the things your illness prevented you doing before and some people don't believe in the word recovery. These are all valid points, but something I believe is recovery is different… Continue reading Recovery – its individual
Experiencing a perinatal mental illness affects everyone in different ways, for some it's like a flick of a switch and for others it's a gradual decline of their mental health. There are times in our lives where we have the version of ourselves before an event and a version after. For me there have been… Continue reading Flick of a switch
It's such a difficult subject to talk about yet it affects so many people - Baby loss. * Trigger Warning this post contains my experiences of miscarriage and may be triggering for some, please read with caution and only if you feel able to * Its Baby Loss Awareness week, an event held each October… Continue reading The Taboo of Baby Loss
My first taste of motherhood wasn't what I hoped. My daughter is nearly 5 and it's taken me the best part of 4 of those years to make peace with the desperate sense of loss I felt at not enjoying the first precious years with my baby. In previous posts I've explained how postnatal depression… Continue reading Moving on after Postnatal Depression..
Although I am recovered, I think I will always have some degree of anxiety left behind. It's normal for everyone to have anxiety, it's dates back to our caveman days when we sensed danger, our body pumped extra adrenaline giving us our fight or flight response. Obviously we don't really need this anymore, but when… Continue reading Anxiety After Recovery ..
Looking back over my past blog posts I was surprised to see I hadn't written about this, especially as it was probably the most life altering part of my illness. Agoraphobia is described by the NHS website as 'a fear of being in situations where escape might be difficult or that help wouldn't be available if… Continue reading Agoraphobia: My experience & Recovery
I share a lot of my own journey on this blog but I also wanted to give some helpful information when it comes to postnatal depression. So I thought the best place to start was with the signs and symptoms to look out for. 1 in 7 mums will experience some form of maternal mental… Continue reading Postnatal Depression – Signs & Symptoms
Food for me has always been a pleasure, something to be enjoyed, but I have also had a rocky relationship with it too. I am an emotional eater, if I'm stressed, angry, bored then without even thinking about it I go to the cupboard and reach for the biscuits...or chocolate..or crisps. I use food as… Continue reading Food For Thought
Before I experienced PND I was quite sure I would never need anti depressants. I was convinced if I ever felt 'down' I could overcome it on my own. Well I tried that and I couldn't. I had PND from pretty much the start of my daughters life, and it wasn't until she was 6… Continue reading The Stigma Of Anti-Depressants